The Road To My Future Is Paved In Certified Funds...

A single bank drafted check from Key might infact be the answer...

Yes, today, I finally took a step to remove the infamous albacross hanging from my neck. Sadly, it took three attempts by the large african man sitting behind the counter at Key Bank, not to mention it cost me $6.50... Both surprising and sad, I know.

But, now more than ever, i'm actually taking strides and making an effort to move forward in life, and how amazingly scary it was. I've always felt some angst in reference to this subject matter, I never really enjoyed talking about it, and whenever it was brought up I was happy to shift conversation from it. Most surprising was how anxious I was during the whole process. Which caused the large african teller to turn an incredulous eye my way, which always helps in trying to get a check cut for more than a G. I was shaking, leaning almost over the counter to observe the process, and to make the ordeal even worse the officer who worked at the bank had followed me in observing every shakey second of it.

When I walked out of the bank, I had the check. You'd think some relief would accompany this, but no, nothing. In fact, all I was was worried and scared. These feelings stayed with me a few minutes then eventually faded, as they always do. I'm still a little bothered as to how i'm reacting to this whole situation.

When I got home, I made a few calls, reestablishing some contacts and generating some new ones. Sadly, not a single person i've choosen to involve in this situation seems all that intersted in actually helping me. The gentlemen from the collection company took the time to remind me "We don't do this for free you know".

I personally have bad days too, where in I'm not as kind or helpful to people as perhaps I could be. But, the odds are stacked against the idea that I caught all five of the people I talked to today on a bad day. Unless of course the slope has been steeped and slicked so much, that life is just horrid for the lot of us. I blame republicans.

They lie, they lie as a big team, then give the less than average intelligence lackey following catchy little slogans that they reiterate over and over again. They have so little faith in their constituency they have to spoon feed the lies and spin over and over again.

Hell, atleast Fox News employees thousands of people. I do wonder if they force their employees to sign a loyalty oath, as does the President.

Alright, i'm off to the post office.

-Rys4K