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Cause the online one always finds a way to screw me and or piss me off…

Such is the way of the world though. What I mean to say, is that little these days seems to be without drama. Even the most everyday of activities seems to bring some troubles unseen along with it.

So, it’s Monday the 16th of 2006, Martin Luther King Jr. Day. School starts up again tomorrow, and with that comes the anxiety of perceiving some personal under prepared status. An example of such is the trouble to be had tomorrow at the Bursar’s office, as I’d just recently come to understand that they’d of liked their first tuition payment on the 6th. Ten days late for those too lazy to consider the math. Being as the “BPP” or Bill Payment Plan is some sort of mutual agreement between myself and the university, and really in it’s own way, a pretty important financial favor from the institution itself, I’m sure there is some sort of fine print that says I’m screwed.

Way to assume the worst, ehh?

Such is the way these days, pessimism takes hold in almost every situation, for it’s inherent safety from disappointment. That sort of assumes that the presumption of the worst some how makes the situation better. Which can’t possibly be true? The situation itself stands independent of such factors. It doesn’t really matter what I expect to happen, my expectations have little effect on the real outcome. What is going to happen will happen, my pessimism will only perhaps change my reaction to the situation. If I expect a fight, and am prepared for the fight, generally I’ll be better off.

Again though, I’m pretty sure that’s not accurate. If I approach the situation in a confrontational manner, there is a chance I’ll skew the other party’s perception of myself or of my intent. So the answer is really just to be cool. Just be cool, let what happens happen, and deal with it at that point.

The funny thing about this is it’s situational. The variables in life are so vast, that considering these things previous to their occurrence has almost no virtue. I can’t predict the future, because if I could, I wouldn’t have to worry about my reaction, because it wouldn’t be a reaction, it’d be some little scene played out in response to events I knew would occur.

This post ends here, and another begins shortly here after.

-Rys4K