I Do Wonder Sometimes, How We Always Find Ourselves Here...

How we find ourselves here, at this hour, so regularly...

I don't know why we find ourselves here. I really don't. Moments ago, I thought it was the allure of the solitude, the peaceful quiet that allows us to do what we care to. But, then, the tides stem towards loneliness. "I walk a lonely road, The only one that I have ever known, Don't know where it goes, But it's home to me and I walk alone." Green Day, Boulevard of Broken Dreams. Not that the concept is all that original, existentialism has been the root of many a song, mostly geared toward the angry teen crowd.

I actually have been using this time to catch up on the West Wing. Interesting interesting developments. I really enjoy the way they're switch hitting the focus between the white house and joush's one man campaign. Something to believe in, a base, an idol (not one on FOX), something to follow, something to believe in.

So, again, it's 6 am, and we find ourselves here. That statement in itself suggests a removal of control from the situation, where as I simply found myself here, and didn't put myself here.

I hold the reigns, I turn the screws, and yet the horses are going no where, and the drill stares back at me longingly.

I know the answer, but it's really the question that fills my preoccupation.

The answer is really quite simple... Something, anything, as long as it's progressive. As, long as it's an attempt at forward motion, i'll be moving in the right direction.

For me, thats all for now, the wicked never rest, but the rest of us tire after 17 hours.

-Rys4K

p.s.-
Hey there, got a dollar?
Hey there, want to play a game of chance?
Ohhh, you wonder of the prize?
What if I told you, everything, and anything?
What if I told you, that you could invest in me?
What if I took your money, and bettered myself?
What if the future me, became capable of change?
What if the change were of epic proportion?
What if I turned it all around, and flipped it upside down
What if I trimmed the fat, found a new way to skin the cat?
What if I were able to better it all, for all of us?
Would it be worth the risk, could you accept the danger?
So, I ask of you, perhaps you care to place a wager?