A Brief Reprieve From my Perpetual Discontent...

Also known as the lunch hour...

Another lunch at the office, another $3.10, another coffee and bagel, another 30 minutes of rest...

I noticed it's rather hot out today, another beautiful day to continue the mini-streak. I guess yesterday the weather was rather fine also, but I slept through most of it.

Anyhow, I wanted to really begin this post with a brief analogy, this one particularly graphic, to exaggerate the similiarities. Imagine if you got a dog, a kind loving beast. But, for some reason unknown, you chose to kick the dog in the head everytime you saw him. For no real reason, perhaps annoyance, or frustration, or something of the sort you lay a serious blow upon an unsuspecting and even more so undeserving victim. Overtime the dog would become timid, and grow a healthy fear of you. It would avoid you when you came home, it would do it's best to shy away behind something when it saw you. In the even more eventual future, the dog would either run away, or lash out at you in defense...

So, for those of you who don't get the joke, that was a parallel to my current day to day 9 to 5... It's not anywhere near that extreme, but you get the point. The majority of my clients are acquired through cold calls. Meaning I'm the guy calling you about your phones. Not many people are all that excited to talk about their phone lines, and the market is so over saturated with other shady motharuckers, that it's difficult to convey my skill or experience over the phone.

"Sixteen tons, what do you get, another day older and deeper in debt. St. Peter don't you call me cause I can't go, I owe my soul to the company store." -Tennesse Ernie Ford

It's kind of funny that came up on Yahoo Radio as I was expressing my concern over my current position. Followed closely by a little Rage Against the Machine.

Either way, you may wonder what would keep me here then? Well, quite honestly, where else can you make a half dozen phone calls, and pocket a deal that'll put $1000 in your pocket? Albeit they're few and far between, it happens. It does. Not to exclude the idea of the pending raise. Where as I wouldn't only get a status bump, but a bit of a raise. The only problem is, I don't know if said raise is enough to keep me getting by if I really don't want to spend the bulk of my days on the phones?

It's amazing what I share with the internet. Being as "insecure" as it is, although it has that needle in a haystack thing about it, still someone could stumble across it. Who knows.

Till next time folks,

-Rys4K

p.s.- It's not as bad as it sounds, i'm just having a crap day. There's always tomorrow, and that miracle call to get you through.